Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Baby i'm back
I have been smiling to myself since this morning. The thought of "Okay, you may leave the exam hall now" makes my heart flop and rejoice! But after my last paper, I had to meet Miss Chen about choir stuff and I've gotta deal with some choir admin stuff asap. There will be lotsa event up for the choir so, there goes my hols. Furthermore, school will be ending @ late nov then we'll be going to taiwan and carollings. I don't know if I will ever have any time to spare for myself. Ah wells.
ALL IS WELL (if I get promoted)!!!
I'll trust God that I'll be promoted yup. I've given my all for the papers but it is really a pity I didn't start earlier. Everything was "let's leave it to God's will" except for my chem which I screwed it up TERRIBLY. I hope you get why I capped it. I don't know why I was so panicky while studying for it and all I studied didn't register at all. Damn sh1tszx. Ah wells, crosses finger and pray hard for a miracle!
ps: i'm in love with vanilla twilight by owl city, and the band itself. (Y)
Anyhoo, enough of my rants. I'm just so glad promos are over. Though, I still have many stuff to complete on hand, I know my God will make a way for me to enjoy whatever I'm gonna do.
Now it's time for pardeh pardehhhhhhh.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Now or never
I humble myself in front of you and ask for wisdom to tackle any difficult questions that i'm going to face in the examination hall and I hope that all my beloved friends will have their unmerited, undeserved favour from you Lord. You said this year is a dektos year, so I'll shall ask and you'll freely give. WISDOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Ashes and wine
I've lost the only love worth fighting for
I'll drown in my tear storming sea
That which show you, that which make you hurt like me
All the same
I don't want mudslinging games
It's such a shame
To let you walk away
Is there a chance?
A fragment of light at the end of the tunnel?
A reason to fight?
Is there a chance you may change your mind?
Or are we ashes and wine?
Don't know if our fate's already sealed
This day's spinning circus on a wheel
I'm ill with the thought of your kiss
Coffee laced intoxicating on her lips
Shut it out
I've got no claim on you now
Not allowed to wear your freedom down
Is there a chance?
A fragment of light at the end of the tunnel?
A reason to fight?
Is there a chance you may chance your mind?
Or are we ashes and wine?
I'll tear myself away
If that is what you need
There is nothing left to say
But
Is there a chance?
A fragment of light at the end of the tunnel?
A reason to fight?
Is there a chance you may change your mind?
Or are we ashes and wine?
Reduced ashes and wine
Or are we ashes?
A Fine Frenzy.
Esther :(
SH1TTY TTM
I was in 100 and I saw this transitlink bus and my natural reaction was to drop and board that bus cause it was usually a 970 which also meant that I can reach home earlier. I had lotsa stuff on my hand when I alighted so, I left my bag on the stone chair to retrieve my wallet. When I carried my bag, I saw a wet patch there and pondered for a moment and look if the bus was coming. I touched the base of my bag to find out that it smelled like BEER. Fux.
I saw the bus arriving so I flagged for it and it was a NR5. I cursed but whatever manz, $3.50 for me to reach home early was a pretty good deal. But to my dismay, it went straight (not the usual path) which again meant that I had to walk EVEN further home. I went, "Fuck this" @ an audible level don't know if the others could hear but I felt damn sh1tty.
Decided to call bestie to rant but my bat went flat when I said, "I'm fucking unlucky". I was super angsty @ that moment and I had to rant. Pardon me for my very unsightly language cos I couldn't help it.
Today was super not productive @ all but at least "Zac" brightened up my day. However, I think my heart just shattered into a million pieces after I went FB. Esther will totally understand my situation right now. Damnnnnn sh1tszx already.
I hope I don't retain {Crosses finger}
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Wisdom is the principal thing
James 1:5-8
"If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives
to all liberally and ask without reproach, and it will be given to him. But let
him ask in faith, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea
driven and tossed by the wind. For let not that man suppose that he will receive
anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways"
I've been quoting lotsa bible verse the past 2 days and it really serves as a marvellous reminder to me in life. The book of James is really meaningful and is pretty short. I think I'll mediate on it before I start on my work.
Today has been another great day in the house of God. I'm holy molly now. ^^V I hope Water baptism is still open next service. Esther and I totally forgot about it. Dammmit :'(
Btw, hope y'all blog hoppers are loving my playlist cause this playlist is absolutely lovely. Fireflies by Owl city is (Y)~.~(Y)! Sucha cutesy song. Have started listening to muttons the past week too. They are really good djs, great entertainment to perk you up whilst muggingggggg.
MUGGGGGGGGGGGG TRIX MUGGGGGGGGGGG for the remaining 1 week yup? 1 week of books is way more appealing than retaining for a year. MUGGING FTWWWW. ^^V
Saturday, September 19, 2009
There is no one else like you
Everything P. Benj preached today was exactly what I needed to hear that reflected my week. It was the first time when Pastor said that, "Okay, I'm going to close with this last verse" and my heart wrenched cause I was so hungry for more. Everything was almost perfection. So glad I didn't change my mind and continue to loop back home cause I was tired.
Matthew 19: 1-16
The Parable of the workers
1 “For the kingdom of heaven is like a landowner who went out early in the morning to hire laborers for his vineyard.
2 Now when he had agreed with the laborers for a denarius a day, he sent them into his vineyard.
3 And he went out about the third hour and saw others standing idle in the marketplace,
4 and said to them, ‘You also go into the vineyard, and whatever is right I will give you.’ So they went.
5 Again he went out about the sixth and the ninth hour, and did likewise.
6 And about the eleventh hour he went out and found others standing idle, and said to them, ‘Why have you been standing here idle all day?’
7 They said to him, ‘Because no one hired us.’ He said to them, ‘You also go into the vineyard, and whatever is right you will receive.’
8 “So when evening had come, the owner of the vineyard said to his steward, ‘Call the laborers and give them their wages, beginning with the last to the first.’
9 And when those came who were hired about the eleventh hour, they each received a denarius.
10 But when the first came, they supposed that they would receive more; and they likewise received each a denarius.
11 And when they had received it, they complained against the landowner,
12 saying, ‘These last men have worked only one hour, and you made them equal to us who have borne the burden and the heat of the day.’
13 But he answered one of them and said, ‘Friend, I am doing you no wrong. Did you not agree with me for a denarius?
14 Take what is yours and go your way. I wish to give to this last man the same as to you.
15 Is it not lawful for me to do what I wish with my own things? Or is your eye evil because I am good?’
16 So the last will be first, and the first last. For many are called, but few chosen.”
Ecclesiastes 12:12
For further, my son. be admonished by these. Of making many books there is no end, and much study is wearisome to the flesh.
I guess He spoke to me through these 2 verses. Let me not be complacency in my work. Let God take over my studies by making Him my first priority. What I am weak, Lord you're strong in it. Give me your wisdom to conquer my Chem, Physics, Maths, Econs, GP and get promoted.
Take whatever I have and multiply it by the hundred fold.
Friday, September 18, 2009
EWW, PW
Yesterday, I was really marvelled by God. From bumping into Yaolun @ macs and telling me about going to church because of overflow to doing really badly for my chem test (which I was really desperate for a pass) to getting a call from my YL on that very day and prayed for me. I believe this is God's incidences. This week has been pretty fruitful (except for today) and yup, I'll attend youth service tmr because of the overflow.
For the record, I didn't touch my desktop @ all for this entire week but I did use my phone. I'm so proud of myself and I deserve a pat on my back. ^^V Cheerios to that and I hope this will continue till my promos is over. Approx. 10 more days to my GP paper and I promise to start revising tmrw.
I'm gonna start on my PW rly soon. Screw this sh1t.
Never to use the comp unless necessary. I did not do a single sh1t. Fuxxxxxx!
ps: God answered my prayer when I said, "Give me some "fruitella" please" and he appeared. JJ and I were awfully random giving names to my eyecandies. There's haribos, lollipop and fruitella but... fruitella ftw! :D
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Wise man says
On a side note, my sister bought her nano already and I think... it's actually quite pretty. First up, it's pink (sweeeeet), it has a radio (like finally), able to take video (no biggies actually), 8gb and it has loud speaker. All for $228? Madness cheap. I bought mine at a slightly lower price if I've not remembered wrongly and mine has so little function. Unfair manz. Oh wells.
2 more weeks to promos and I think I should really start studying already. Not just catching up on my homework. Sh1tszxzxzx.
Saturday, September 12, 2009
In retrospect.
Just half an hour ago, I was at my cip place doing my chem alone for probably 4.5hours. I didn't finish my chem eventually but it never felt better cause I had the whole place to myself with no distractions (beside my phone which I used to camwhore and found some rly cool function) and enjoyed total tranquility.
Sometimes, I can't draw the line between being introvert and being too tired to communicate with the world. Albeit getting feedback by people that I'm quite an outgoing person, I think I beg to differ and I guess closer friends will know better that it's pretty hard for me to open up to a person unless there's a good reason too. It's just inborne that I can never be charismatic.
I'm think of changing blog again and dammit cause school's reopen soon which only means hardcore mugging since this week was pretty futile for moi. fux.
ps: Lee minho is coming to Sg on 10.10.09 for the opening of Etude house @ Ion and I'm so gonna go there. I promiseeeeeeeeee!!!! Since promos are over too. :D hehehe
Friday, September 11, 2009
Overnight @ Changi macs

What sh1tszx

@ Zero to Hero

My dearest choirrrr ^^

Sometimes Lisa's pretty pencil case comes in handy
Watched Time traveller's wife and it was great. I had the "I can't get enough of it" feeling for the entire day yesterday. The movie was pretty unrealistically realistic. Y'all get my drift right? It's those typical storyline that leaves girls like moi fantasizing, stealing a smile to myself. But that's the beauty of it, isn't it so?
I had a great night @ changi macs besides the fact that my phone and ipod failed me but all else was good. Had great company with the girls and we were full of nonsense but well, me like. I'm rly contemplating this again but I'm not sure if I can afford the time since it was not rly that productive for me cause I was pretty zonked out after I took my contacts off.
We did many many silly stuff like coming out with weird sounds to revamp the radio's song, laughing over 987's version of Fuck you by Lily Allen, having chit chatting session that totally wrecked my momentum, eating Esther's super duper ultra spicy Macspicy, talking about trivial matters and finding for a god damn power point. There's rly more to this but I can't remember.
I'm super sick of my songs already. Gotta change it soon but mixpod or rather my internet is pretty crazy at times. Damn sh1tszx
ps: my sis is going to get her ipod soon and i think it's rly dumb of her. what for an ipod when itouch is a gazillion times better? i hope she gets an itouch eventually. *evil laughter*
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
More than just a memory
I'm getting a lil lazy to blog recently and blogger can't seem to upload pictures yet again. Annoying crap. Life's good and since the hols are here, i'm a happy kidszx too. Can wake up late and all. Niceeee.
Anyw, got lotsa of stuff I wanna get recently. Gmasking phone, Lee Copper Shoes, new pencil case. Arghhh but i'm broke (as always). How sh1tszx.
My mio is crazy. I've damn lousy connection now. Fux.
With love. (k, so bimbotic. HAHAH)
Friday, September 4, 2009
Anticipating Sep hols much
Finally done with Choir's last event and we've absolutely no excuses for not mugging now. I really want promos to come quickly (not that i am really well prepared) but I rly want the hols to come quick so I can stop waking up so early and attending brain draining tutorials and lectures. ^^V Hope that my weeks ahead would be a fruitful one. Hahaha.
Btw, I still reek of Indian smell. I'm not being rascist here but it's true and I think I looked really horrible in my Sari cause I looked like i'm 4months pregnant aka I look fat but is fat. Waraooooooo. But.....come what may, I think it's really some cool stuff too. Choir camwhored like some crazy mama. I'll upload in FB tmrw. Choir did a brilliant job today and personally rly proud of 'em. Keep up the good work! (Sound like teacher) hahaha.
AND AND AND..... Meet my new baby.... LG GM900 aka Viewty Smart. I'm in love with her. Sweeeeet and I totally need to gmask her. Her because it's so pretty. Not forgetting 8 megapixel camera, totally relevant for a camwhore like moi.... friends. Kidding :)
Yay. Sep hols ftw! :D
Monday, August 31, 2009
Money honey
Here's an awesome kiddo. I had goosebumps listening to him. Darn good. Me like much! :D
Saturday, August 29, 2009
All set and ready to go
CIP was cancelled so, I spent my whole afternoon on packing my room and watched the Eye10. Eye10 was darn boring. I've many other movies in my comp thanks to yk's harddrive. Hurray! I rly want to watch The Proposal and Where got ghost? But i'm really broke now.
On a lighter note, I've joined in the "bag packer" trend! I got myself a light pink Jansport bag which I've been eyeing for rly long and found it yesterday when I was out with Bestie (I owe you big time!). Hurray x2! I hope it won't give me problems though. My shoulders are weird thus, I find it pretty hard to carry bag pack which explains why I don't wear bag pack but...... this bag pack rly caught my eye.
Alright. Time to hit the books after my shower. :x
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I have not start on anything yet but am watching mj's concert on channel 5 and I think he is awesome. I downloaded songs too. :)
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Life's hard?

Channel U's showing the celebrity going to 3rd world country and helping those less fortunate people and they are sharing their sentiments now, emotional much. Sometimes, I wonder if it rly impacts a person? Give them say 1 year and they'll revert back to their frivolous lifestyle and all.
Anyhoo, No school for me. I knew that was coming since ytd I was sickly already. I think i've like lost my voice along the way. I felt so weird not being in school but nonetheless, I took this chance to bum my day away and was more saint to do some work (which I kinda stopped already) after dinner. I hope these rest will do me some good for the next one month to really give all out to get good grades to be promoted. Don't feel that well still but should be fit to attend school tmr?
Guess what, my dad got chicken pox! Living up to more than half a century and he is having chicken pox. Wth, utter hell for him for the next few days I guess. Hahah, get well soon pa.
I think my brother's the dumbest shit ever. Shan't elaborate but till the day he proves me wrong. He has been given so many chances, just to lose it all time after time.
Bye bye. I need to rest even more. Lord you'll reign in my tough time.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
I really think I don't deserve this
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I fiddled with photoshop for 1+ hour just to do 1 pathetic picture. Sorry PW group, I am trying my best. Hahahah.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Better life
Had a great time with the authors of books. Today, there was a new story opened entitled "ghost". Boy, it was thrilling. All the malay ghosts that really freaked me out and sharing here and there. HAHAHA. Of cos, along with many other stuff. :)
I was looking thru all my pics. Needed to find a good one for Cons and i realised how much I miss having my long fringe and slightly curlier hair? :( Grow hair, grow!!!!
So much for an update. See y'all soon!!
Thursday, August 20, 2009
HAI!
I fell in love with White Christmas today during choir. (Y)!
As we all know that PJ Choir is going to Hk to perform @ disneyland and all. It's opened to all PJ students as well! Please approach any choir members if you're interested alright? I personally think it's a really rare opportunity and moreover, you can get CIP hours. How good?
Lol, feel so unscrupulous advertising my choir but I really find that it's such a rare opportunity and experience.
Gonna watch my Channel U 10pm show now. ^^V
Sunday, August 16, 2009
In Jesus name, I reject this anger
Anyways, it was only Cass and I today and I guess it was quite productive for me? Yayyyy. 25mark essay question was sucha a killer I swear. I wrote like freaking 4 pages but I think it was a whole lot of rubbish manz.
As I was whining about to Cass about how I study so little for a test comparing to my secondary school's, I think I manage my time real poorly and lack of determination and discipline. But it is true that when I want to study for a test, my timetable just won't allow me time to do so. And I, so happen to be a person that adheres to my personal set of rules very strictly like having ample (5-6hrs during school days) rest, don't starve yourself, etc. Hahahaha. The computer in my room is such a distraction at times and ain't helping me in any way. Rahhhh. I was just turning on the comp to check some stuff and here I am spending 0.5hrs on it.
There's this graded timed chem ast tmr but I'm rly lazy and I think i'll just read thru my notes tmrw. I don't have any mood for studying any more. All this hectic schedules and unending tutorials are killing me softly. HAHAHAHA! I'm fortunately enough to say that I've Jesus who has already conquered all my problems, so I shall face it and reign in it. Amen :)
My shout out to 2 special ppl in my life:
MY DEAREST BESTIE. IM SO GLAD YOU'RE FINE NOW COS I SWEAR I FELT TERRIBLE WHEN I WAS HELPLESS. IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU AND PROMISE NOT TO LET THIS EVER HAPPEN AGAIN! I'LL STAND BY YOU NO MATTER WHAT K. LUV YA. XXX!
MY DEAREST JUNYROO. I SINCERELY HOPE YOU ARE FEELING BETTER NOW K. PZ WILL ALWAYS STAND BY YOU TOO. DON'T GIVE UP COS WE WON'T! BE OF GOOD CHEER NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS. YOU'VE GOD AND US BY YOUR SIDE. MY TRADEMARK: Truckloads of luv, xoxoxxxx! (K)
K, time to go to get ready for school tmr. Le agony.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
I like
I'm still learning Korean at the end of year and I think I've found someone (Yakult) who's gonna learn with me!! Yayyy!
Gu Jun pyo ftw manz :D
Friday, August 14, 2009
elle.vol
This was the first time I had put in so much thoughts and effort to be of good cheer to myself. I am dead sure this isn't my usual self. At least not at this very moment. I knew exactly what was hindering my actions but too timid to carry on. It is me, to fail. It is me, to wither away like the grass in my school field. Trampled on with the least form of respect. I was never victorious in life. But I hope.
I willed myself to take one step closer. My guts grew when you turned. You waved and my heart skipped a beat. Such superfluous joy ran through my entire body and I instantly lit up. As soon as I lifted my heavy arms to wave, I turned away and glee from ear to ear. God must have helped me. This was our first encounter. This memory was etched deep down in my heart, you're the best that I could ever have.
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We literally bumped into each other heads on. I saw stars around you but you... ever so gorgeous, was my lovely moon. I picked up all the files and papers that were scattered all around us and handed it back to you as swiftly as possible. I frowned and walked away. Why did I frown? My face had never felt so hot in my entire life. May be LOVE always does the impossible? May be LOVE is kind? I don't know.
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"Lovelle! Beach boy is looking at you again. Quick, grab your chance!"
"Oh no, I can feel his eyes all over me now. S-O-S! Should I turn and wave?"
"Duh?"
I mustered all my courage, adjusted my blouse and swept my fringe into place. I turned and waved. Boy, he was gorgeous. Tall, dark, handsome with a great built. How in the world was I the "chosen" one? I'm plainer than plain jane.
I sensed your half-heartedness. My heart died. Then, you turned around. My whole world came crushing down on me. Maybe this was just not meant to be. Probably a dare from his obnoxious friends? You ruined the rest of my day and that sucked big time.
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I dragged my feet to school. I saw you and something or someone pushed me when we got closer. Shocks and horrors were on the faces of our fellow school mates. Everything was in slow motion as I hit onto your muscular chest. My world stopped spinning at this very moment. "Physical?" I thought to myself and tried to hide my smile from you. How silly of me.
Again, you tore my heart into two when you frowned and walked away. I guess I've become the joke of your day. Love hurts and I wished it was the last thing that will ever knock on my doorway to life. I don't know.
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Fate loves to play with us. Eternity was always meant to be for us but I think we accidentally lost it along our friendship soon-to-be relationship. We've been through thick and thin, hell-like situations, became lovelorn creatures and more than what you can ever imagine. If love was so fragile, then we would rather not love. Love from our heavenly father, is sufficient for us. He has bore our afflictions, so what more can we ask for.
Mortal fairy tales? A pack of lies and "sorry" won't do this relationship any justice.
(To be continued...)
Purely fiction. I just felt like it. Should I continue?
Day 3: Bom bom pow!
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Monday, August 10, 2009
kewllll.
Friday, August 7, 2009
Change, again?
Okay, so what's up? Today has been splendid. I had a crazy time in school today. Celebration was awesome cause we went crazy on stage, screaming our lungs out and did the "tutu train". I kinda expected the celebration to be that good already. PW was killjoy, or rather Kevin ang. Our class knows that you're a very frank and straightforward person but what you last did when you step out of the classroom was unforgivable. How could you? wtfasdfghjkl;'
After our chem eqm ast which I am bound to fail, a few of us stayed back for photobooth with Mohsin's macbook. Crazy time but me like! :) JMH spammed photos and I hope Mohsin would upload into fb soon. All the unglam, drama mama, bimbotic, fugly postures, you name it, you'll have it!!!
I went to meet up with my mom @ JP for lunch. We had some heart to heart talk and mini shopping. She said that she'll only change the phone next month I guess? Hopefully, I can get a new phone in the same time. Her mood was pretty good today so it was great shopping with her although I didn't get many stuff.
Don't get why people have to become so critical about blogs that post about daily events? Isn't a diary meant for you to write down daily stuff and your personal rants? But in this case, it is online. Oh wells.
It's been long since I've been posting my two cents worth about random stuff. Blinded by the fast-pacing JC life which constantly involves you with your pretty lecture notes, foolscape and stationery. Bitchhhh.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
life's a bitch, get use to it.
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Had a bad day.
By the spirit of power that raised Christ from the dead"
I caught the flu bug. Woke up to a massive sneeze today, it was rly nasty and it didn't end there. My whole day was ruined because of this and partially my sore eye. I slept thru the whole of my chem lect today. It was rly terrible. Can't describe further how awful my day could have been. Softball was the only fun thing today.
My blog has been lacking of photos recently but I rly don't know what happened. Help any one?
Gonna get my rest and hopefully get some work done. I need to do my work ):
It is me? Or is the world? Everything's changing and I don't feel the same.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
HANGOVER COOL SH1TZ
I watched Hangover on DVD. It was rly clear and good but the bad news is I have not start on my work AT ALL. Damn shit laaaaaaaa.
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